writer's block

time is a construct roundup #1

Time Started: 10:47 PM
Mood: Tired
Weather: Dark and Stormy

Hello again, readers.

After the bleakness of my last entry, I'm happy to say that my life has been much more lighthearted over the last few months. I actually managed to do some rather fun things.

The main thing I did was drive up to the city where I'm planning on going to university and tour the campus. It was very pretty, the scenery was nice, and even the dorms seemed to be rather clean and well maintained. I'm very excited to start in the fall! I've lived in a rather small and uninteresting shithole of a town my whole life, so the opportunity to finally live by myself (without the excruciatingly throttling presence of my parents) is very much welcomed.

The next big thing that happened was my eighteenth birthday! I am now a legal adult. It didn't really strike me until I was clocking out at work and I realized I didn't need a manager card since I was no longer a minor. How odd, that over the span of a day your legal status can change completely. I am glad for it. I would much rather be an adult than a child- at least adults have their own freedoms. The increased responsibility is worth that, in my opinion.

My birthday was rather enjoyable. I didn't get any gifts that would be very interesting to talk about here, but I did get ice cream with my friends and walk around my town's little shopping area with them, which was of course very fun. It was a simple hangout, but it was exactly what I needed; a small moment of connection, which I must admit I am lacking in my life. Once you start considering yourself to be a "lonely" person, it can be hard to break out of that.

Nothing much has happened since my birthday. It is currently Finals Week, as well as my last week or so of high school forever. Four years of my life are about to be over in less than a month. I am scared, and I am hopeful- a new chapter, as they say. Maybe my life will finally start looking up.

That's it for life updates. My album recommendation for this week is Teens of Denial by Car Seat Headrest. Not exactly the most pretentious or highbrow of recommendations, but I have a deep appreciation for any music that feels authentically and honestly made, and this is exactly that. I've been looping this record quite a lot recently. I suppose sometimes you just need some angsty gay tunes. Find it here.

I will speak with you again, readers. Take care.

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